A long time coming...

So i have to start out by saying, this is the very reason that i DID NOT want to join facebook. This is a long but juicy story so brace yourselves. Ok, i got a friend request, that i knew was coming. Now, I would not necessarily call it a friend request as much as i would a frenemy request. This girl, lets call her dirty whore, was my best best best friend in high school. She was a grade older than me, but we were inseparable. Seriously there was nowhere that i was that she was not there. We used to sign ourselves out of school and go down to Brewers games, and we had so much fun together! It was the summer that she graduated from school and i was about to be a senior. She moved to Waukesha to live with her mother. Now believe it or not, that changed nothing... i would drive back and forth up to 3 times a day from West Bend mind you to see her and hang out, and she would come up by me when she could get the car, but i had my own car so i did most of the driving. Then during that summer i reunited with an old flame of mine, i will call him Dick. So Dick and i were hanging out, and he had hurt me once before, but i was rather happy to be back with him. So after a bit i confessed to DW that i was seeing him again, and i thought that i was in love with him. DID you catch that. yes i said LOVE... So naturally we all started hanging out. Great times... The three of us spent tons of time together, as the summer was nearing an end, i would always go up to our families lake house on holiday. So i left for a week. Now this was like murder. DW could not come with me ... And to make this even worse... My cell phone did not have service in the boon docks...ahhhhh111 we all now how terrible this was for me a girl whom NEVER stops talking to be in the middle of nowhere and be out of human contact because me cell did not work. So i could not tell you how happy i was when finally after a long week I finally got Reception.... but as soon as that happened. to this day i can still remember, i had this weird sick feeling, like something was wrong. But regardless, i was super happy to call Dick, and then call DW. SO i was talking to them both, and they said that they both had good weeks, but yet they sounded weird.... that night it came out. When i was gone they hooked up!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh yes and by hooking up, i don't mean it Laguna beach style i mean it the Hills style. I'm sure at this moment you may even have a slightly sick feeling in your stomach. well i was devastated!! I lost my boyfriend and my best friend in one day. I felt betrayed beyond belief. It still makes me sick just thinking about it. For weeks, i walked around like a zombie, i felt dead inside. Now mind you i was not about to kill myself when this happened, but i felt so low that it was pretty damn close. How could my best friend do that to me. Why would she even think that that was remotely ok. DEVASTATED!

So after some time, i tried to forgive them, i did try. I tried to hangout with her one day, but i just could not do it. I was still so hurt! SO we just went our separate ways.

Present day. Within the last week and a half, she has tried to befriend me on facebook, TWICE. the second time was just this morning, but it was not just a request, she sent me a message with it. It reads..."Hey Ashley, wow, its been a long time, you look great! This is DW (OK i took her name out and put her new name in place). I got married, I have a 16 month old son, Charlie, and I work at a police dept...crazy world, huh!? How have you been? What are you up to ? Where you living, where you working? Whaaaaaat.... I ignored her before, but now she sent me a message.... I just can't click that accept button. I can't. Now this does not help that fact that i am curious to see what she looks like these days. Nothing would be more satisfying than seeing her really fat or something to that extent, but i think that my pride is stronger than my curiosity at this point.

I still blame those two sucky people for how i am in relationships now. They ruined me I can't forgive them for that nor should I. I would NEVER do that to a friend of mine. Never ever. That that i would but given the chance, it just might cross my mind to go Chris Brown on her...

On a happy note, the Fireman's Chili dinner is tonight... they may just have to put out my fire :-)