Speechless.....

Yes, for a good whole minute i was speechless.. It was my reaction after the non-chalante "oh and you know that i started seeing someone from Fond Du Lac before i left for China" Speechless... its almost like you could hear the music from Jeopardy playing in the background while he was looking at me. My feelings were a mixture of WTF, i'm going to rip your balls off, and wow i don't even care. How weird is that? I guess that in my mind i already knew that i did not want to be with him, but i still wanted him to want me. This sucks. I can't even be mad at him. He was honest about it. I do give him the credit for telling me, but in he same breath, why couldn't he have told me before he left? All in all, the night wasn't a total bust, we had a good time catching up. I just can't stop thinking about what he said when he dropped me off. "I had a great time, I'm still very attracted to you, i still really want to be friends. Can we get together next week?" Yeah, I'm just not sure what to think at this point. If he is seeing another girl, why is he taking me out to dinner? If he really does just want to be friends why was this not talked about earlier? At this point, who knows. I am just happy that i was not waiting around for him while he was gone. NEXT...