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whew... last night was a doozy. My questioning can now be layed to rest. I am Single. Again. (Ugh! please don't make that face... yeah the oh your single again... but why? face. Stop it!) I guess i was just kind of sick of the hmm he seem aloof, but not... You know what im talking about... So i bit the bullet. I had to ask wing man if he really wanted to be in this "relationship" or not. To make a long story short, he said that he did not feel the "spark" Hmmmm... he said that it just seemed like we were more friends than anything. Hmmm ok. I did not feel like we were just friends, i liked him. But to be honest. now that i stop and think, i dont think i had that real spark either. Don't get me wrong, i really liked him, but i never felt that UN containable need to be by him. Hmm... so he kept asking me if we could still hang out. I said sure, but don't expect me to call. If he wants to see me he can do all the work. I'm done with trying to put my all into something that inevitably did make me cry. I'm sad, irritated, numb.... then this happened....

I got a call from my BF. To go back a little. When i went to Mexico i had to have a guy friend of ours put some of my crazy cute shoes in his carry-on. Ends up he still had a pair in his bag and they have been living in his house since. I have tirelessly been trying to get them back since January, with no luck. So last night i come to find out that The f-ing moron borrowed them to some girl, and she has them. I SEE FIRE. I was like a bull in the ring seeing red. Ooooo i was pissed!! WTF!!! Who does that! needless to say, i was already so upset about the breakup, that i lost it, and i threatened his balls if those shoes are ruined.

Funny thing about last night is i don't know what i was more upset about, the break-up or my shoes.... hmm maybe the fact that i am so over-worked and exhausted, has left me numb to it all.